WhY?? wHy?? WhY??

I don't feel good. I don't know why??? SOMEBODY PLEASE SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD coz i feel like RIPPING my heart out and shatter and splatter it all into tiny little bitty pieces. This is not me, I'm not supposed to feel emo ever again. I thought I left that feeling behind a Loooooong time ago.... Why?? Why issit back?? Omg, somebody please smear what's left of my blood all over the road. This invisible pain I'm feeling.... It hurts so bad...I'm crying but no tears seem to come out.... I'm sinking depper and deeper into the dark dark abyss.... and I can't do a thing about it.. I'm not supposed to feel anything anymore.... Oh god, why did you have to make me go through this experience again???